Yes, I quit my current position and I am jobless now. What’s next? Everyone likes to ask me this. Well, will go "lepak-ing" at Jobstreet, window shopping at the available jobs. IT? Web? Marketing? Sales? Event? TEACHER??? Any idea?

I really don’t have much mood looking for job. I need to settle down, some said. Maybe I need some time to think about it, all over again. What I want? What I need? What can I do? What I’m suppose to do? What’s my dream?

Life is just as complicated. I just can’t live in the land that I dream of.. I just need to do things people said that I suppose to do, in order to live in this realistic world. I can’t follow my heart. I can’t follow my dream. I can only walk the dark path in this jungle of realistic life, blindly.

I do hope I live in fairy tale land. That one day, my angel will come, and lead me out of this dark jungle to a colourful fantasy land.

One of my dream comes true. I met Angela in person and I get to shake her hand..!! My goodness.. her face is so smooth, eyes so bright, smile so sweet and her hand is so warm.

I always see her in movies, MV, hear her voice.. but this time.. it’s real.. I can feel her. I love Angela..!

The stage

The real Angela

Her signature..!

Leave.. apart is just the first step of growing.
Leaving.. is just another painful feeling to go through.
Left.. is just a memory..

Some of my hurtful leaving memory:
- I’m at high school, friends left to uni
- I left to uni, family at hometown
- Fews guys left for other gals
- I left to SG, family and friends at MY

This hurtful feeling will always be there. Although it might healed, but there are still scars left. The most hurtful and deepest scar is my Ah Paul, who left me forever.. 

People come and people go.. but how many do stay, in our memory forever?

I miss you, all and everyone out there.. including me, my old me.. 

I felt such a pain and deep sorrow for the victims of China quake. I would like to send my condolence to the victims’ families and will pray hard for the survivals who are still missing or buried below.