Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don’t even know why I do the things I do

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide

Many days I’ve spent drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what’s my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

Cause it’s a long long journey
Till I feel that I’m worth the price

My cousin’s son, or my nephew, Jack is poor in English. He has started his Primary 1 in SG, where English is very important. So, I offered to help him by giving him tuition every weekend.

I was giving him spelling test. But he’s too slow to learn those words. Then, he started to cry because his uncle said “You is stupid” to him.

Well, who is stupider? If he does not have a proper grammar, he should not tease the little boy. Poor Jack.. I quickly encourage him by giving him a cute animal pen.

I am not sure why I want to do this. Without pay and have to scarify my weekend. But I do want to help. When I had this decision, I was so happy and excited. I went to buy some vocabulary and exercise books for him. Also, I am giving him my dictionary that had been with me since my primary days (hope it is still acceptable up to date).

Children’s emotion is very important that will stick to him the rest of their life. I do not want to see him being teased and laughed at school. I would really hope that he can follow up his studies and do not end up like his parent or my other not-well-educated cousins.

Some may ask that there are so many cousins staying in Jack’s house, more than 10 I guess. But there are all working in factory due to lack of education in young age. It is not that their families are poor or not allowing them to study. They normally give reasons that they are not gifted with a good brain or “study skills”. I do not believe in good brain, I only believe that there is no stupid people in this world, only LAZY people.

That is why I am giving Jack a dictionary, so that is he has any problem in his studies, my cousins can look into it and help him when I am not around. I really wish that he can cope up with his study and have a bright future.