Why do people think of themselves only?
Why do people never think from other side of view?
Why do they accuse of things I never think of doing?
Why do I try so hard to explain?
If they trust me, I won’t have to say a word, and they will understand…

When I was young, Christmas means nothing to me. I did not even know what is Christmas. We never celebrate it.

When I started schooling, Christmas means holiday..!

When I have friends and buddies, Christmas means BBQ day!

When I moved to city, Christmas means Christmas trees, lights and decorations.

When I started earning $, Christmas means sharing and gift exchange.

But when time passed, Christmas makes me think of my loved ones, who are not beside me, or worse, those who left forever. Christmas means memories to me now..

I miss you..

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When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
But guess we’ll cry come first of May.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
But guess well cry come first of May.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
Do do do do do do do do do…
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Someone else moved in from far away.

I was wondering what are all my friends doing recently.
They claim they were busy. Well, it’s ok.
But if busy until can’t even have a day to meet up?

Even worse are those who do not even reply sms.
If not coming, at least tell us.
Don’t always make us doing the guessing game.
It is not easy to organise a meet up.
Can’t you guys just appreciate other’s effort?

Sometimes I think having gathering with my piglets and toys are better.
At least everyone appear for my tea party.
Then we will sit in a circle and talk our hearts out.

Then we will sing "The more we get together, the merrier we’ll be.."

下雨天 - 南拳媽媽

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

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What do you feel when you miss somebody?
Is it really our heart feeling it or our mind controlling it?
Feeling really comes from our heart?

Missing makes me feel my heart like being squeezed and uneasy.
Sometimes it beats so hard like coming out of my body
Sometimes feel like it stopped.

This feeling makes me cannot concentrate,
Cannot talk, cannot smile, cannot eat, cannot walk,
Cannot do anything at all..

I feel like this especially when I am alone
I have been day dreaming most of the time
Sometimes like my mind switch to auto-pilot
My body walk and do things by itself
Without my mind controlling it
While my mind keep on thinking and flashing back

Once, I sat in middle of mrt seats between 2 kids
(2 seats for 3 of us)
I only realize when my butt feel the pain after few stops.
There were few times when cars drove passed just few inches in front of me
Or honked me when they were so near
To scare away my weak soul
Sometimes I exceed few stops from where I suppose to get down

Why do I become like this?
My heart beats so random, out of rhythm
Make me can hardly breath
And my hands are cold and trembling too.

Guess that I was infected with a heart disease : HEARTACHE